2010 had been a memorable year for me. At the begining of the year, at the month of Feb 24th the person who I dearly loved left us without saying goodbye. I thought my world was going to end. She has been taking care of since the first day I see the world. She is my grandmother, Hjh Nekmah Bte Maksom. My life almost torn into pieces. The thing is that she is always there to listen to my stories and shared my problems. The problem with me is that the bonding me with my parents are not so closed. Until now, I have been keeping alot to myself and I tried to be close to them. To me losing a family member is like losing parts of my body.
It didn't end here. As months goes by, an uncle passed on, followed by a cousin who passed away in an accident and another grandmother passed on.
On the November 19th, I sent my eldest sister, Norimah Bte Abdul Rahim to the hospital. I thought her condition will be much more better but it got worst. This time, I spent most of the time visiting her even though I am tired with work. Had to rush from work to hospital. Only GOD knows how I felt at that time of point. Around late November, she kept having relapsed and it makes me more worried. What makes me more emotionally depressed came from my work place. They thought I was trying to make a joke when everytime I asked for urgent leave. Thank GOD, I got supportive colleagues. They even ask me not to come to work with this kind of condition coz they saw what's happening to my sister.
On the December 1st at 1230hrs, my sister left us. I was beside her. I guess she understand my situation and waited for me to come and be with her until her last breathe. She passed away leaving 2 beautiful daughters behind age 7 and 5. Few weeks later, a cousin passed away due to heart attack.
Life is so unpredictable. Life is so precious. You will never know when you be called back to the creator. Life has to move on and treasure the loved ones. I made a promise to myself and I don't want to feel the guiltiness again. For what had happened in 2010 is an eye opener for me, to appreciate my loved ones. Somehow I wish I could turn back time and make them alive again but it is impossible.
From bottom of my heart, I would like to say a big thank you for those who have be supportive and shared what I had been through. THANK YOU. I am wiping my tears.
