Responsible

Please have some sense of responsibility in your life. Dear Allah pls remind me of being a responsible mother, daughter and wife.

Hope it goes well.

Let's pray everything goes well for me. I just hope everything goes well. It is not easy to have this kind of feeling everyday you go to work. Knowing that you have to do most of the things with ur condition like this. Haizzz... I dunno what to call these people.

Are they BRAINLESS or HEARTLESS???  I am really really tired. It is so sad to work in this kind of environment.

I just wanna RANT!

Nowadays going to work is like going to hell. Seriously, it is not I am being not bersyukur for having a job. But the people here they are just being BRAINLESS. I am getting tired as days goes by.

I got no more passion to carry on working here anymore. I don't love what I am doing now. I don't love my job anymore. I can't be bother with the collegues here anymore. I am so counting down to my due date. I can't wait for my maternity leave. I can't wait to resign from here. I just can't WAIT! You know how tiring is it??

It's been awhile

It's been awhile since I last update this blog. MIL passed away last month on the 19 July 2016. Am 24 weeks pregnant, mean I am 6 mths pregnant. Left like 3 more months to go. Excited plus sad.

Anyway husband has approve to let me stay home after maternity leave. Ouh seriously I can't wait to resign!!! Yeah!!!!

Counting Down.

Am 13 weeks pregnant. Waiting for the little one to fill up our life. Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed. Thank you Allah.

Anyway things isn't dat smooth enough for me and husband especially work. Guess both of us got the same problem. As for now we are just being patience to go through all these together.

I have plan not to stay long in this company. To be honest, I am exhausted. I don't want to elobrate more on the work.

My EDD is on 29 Nov 2016. Hopefully it will be a smooth journey for me and husband.

Ur Leave Was Not Granted

Here I am back again. Yeah been busy and tired lately. As you know there is a tiny human in processing in my tummy. And I have to really really take care of myself.

Today something happened at work. A colleague of mine got agitated and he pushed one of the client towards the door *BANG!!* And the drama begin. He went to the boss's office shivering and explaining to the boss. So he gets to go back. Last week he told me dat he is on leave today as in 11 April but the leave is yet to be approve.

This morning the boss watsapp the group she is not approving any leave today coz we are short of manpower. And so ya.... now you know why I say it's a drama. Next time if ur leave is not approve go and see a doctor. Seriously, that day I had to give in to him becoz he was on course. It's ok if you can't understand my situation now. I know I am like a burden to everyone out there becoz I am pregnant.

Seriously dis make me upset. At the end of the day the boss came and talk to me and I just find it she talk no senses at all! What does those activities got to do when the incident happend? Time to withdraw from everyone. Even from the boss.

Your problem become our problem.

It's time for performance bonus, guess what I never get anything. Abit upset but then it's ok lah. I know they are biase here so let them be lah. Shall work on my freedom soon.

I wish I could let out alot of things now. But I letting be.

Not yet confirm!

Remember when I said that I maybe pregnant. Yup! It's positive but yet to confirm! Alhamdulillah thank you Allah (s.w.t) for answering my doas. I am happy and excited but I have to keep it low coz I want to it to double confirm. Shall go for check up soon.

Anyway dis morning sickness is not only morning okies! It'll come during afternoon or night. Suka hati je ehk. Been craving lots of things hehehe...

Summarise.

Let's just summarise everything since the last update. Lot's of things happen since the last update. I have been observing people and ya there's alot of changes here and there. Anyway I couldn't bother that much coz I don't want to stress myself and it can affect me.

I think I am pregnant. I don't know but I think so. Pray for me. That's all for now.

Watever...

Wanted to update this yesterday but ain't got time to do so. Anyway if I were to update this yesterday. I'll be typing all the vulgarities hahaha... Guess wat the boss was on leave yesterday and today. She lied that there gonna be visitors coming to the centre. Oh I don't mind if she just tell me that there is not enough manpower but she lied. A biase person will be a biase and it could never change.

It's ok someday you will realise ur mistakes hopefully by then it's not too late. Good morning, let's think positive and move on with life.

Midweek.

I can't be negative all the time right? Sometimes, I wish people could understand or should at least have some thoughts for me. Can or not? Or do I need to tell them what's on my mind so that they could understand me better. Haizzz am I asking too much?

The day has end.

Just finished work and feeling pissed off.. I just can't take it when simple things they make it so complicated. It's just a signature and yet the boss just make a big fuss out of it. Shall not rant much about this. At the end of the day, I still have to go through all these. Shall end my day by listening to some surahs 

Oh well..

Reached work and a colleague of mine asked, hey tomorrow are you on leave and I replied nope my leave got rejected. And he goes oh ok den tomorrow I take half day leave morning. Well I don't know if i am being mean or what lah. My leave got rejected becoz I have to accomdate to others.

They go course lah so on and so on..... Dis is wat I mean by freedom. Where I am on my own I don't need to think who needs to cover me or so on. Anyway it's ok lah. I just need to let it out somewhere.

Here we go...

Good morning people...yeah I know no one would come across this blog. I just want to have my own personal space to let out everything. I know I shouldn't give my twitter account to my friends hahah anyway it is all done. So here I'll let out everything.

Today I woke up early but I sleep again. As usual no more motivation to go to work and face those biase people. Their problem has become our problem. Husband was a bit pissed off as he is trying his very hard to wake me up. He is persistent enough. Thank you husband. Well guess I shall rant more later on.

A little update.

Heloo...so here' s a little update about me. I am finally married hehehe.... Got married last year on the 29 August 2015. Alhamdulillah, everything turn out smooth even though the preparations was abit haywire.

Anyway, I am no longer working in children's home. All thanks to a lady who ruined everything. And now I am working with special needs people. Been with them for almost 2 yrs and I am giving up soon. It's not I don't enjoy working with them but I feel tired when handling them. It can be physically and mentally drained. I feel the boss is a bit biased. Feel that some of us are not important at all.

Anyway, husband did tell me if you think you don't like this job, just resign. I know it's nice of him to tell me that. But I can't burden him with everything. I still need income. Anyway, after so much thinking, I shall start my mini business not so soon but yet to come in sha allah. I am just tired working with people. You want to apply leave also cannot how like that???

That's all for now.

Let's Start blogging.

I shall welcome myself.... I shall go back to blogging and here I will express myself. More updates later on.