I wonder.

Sometimes I wonder what is relationship all about. Is it because of love or lust? Hmm well I myself don't have the answer. As for now I am going with the flow.

Every moment, I heard the song Bye-bye from Mariah Carey I'll cry my heart out. I miss her so much. No one could ever replace her. She's my everything and now she's gone. I hope she will meet atuk up there.

Nek, if your listening I miss you so much. Aini da hilang tempat mengadu dan tempat bergantung nek. Al-fateha semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.

Kalau Nenek Masih Disini

Kalau nenek masih disini, aku tak rasa sepi sangat. Ada jugak orang yang boleh aku ajak berbual. Tak yah lah susah susah aku fikir pasal sesiapa pun. Bila nenek pergi tinggalkan kita semua, aku rasa teramat sangat sunyi. Nak kata tak de kawan ada tapi aku tak suka nak susahkan sesiapa.

Nenek, ani rindu sangat ngan nenek. Ani ingat bila da jumpa dia, hidup ani tak sunyi lagi tapi ani silap nek. Mungkin ani kena banyak bersabar ye nek.

I miss her.

I miss her so much. I can't hold back my tears. I can't.... I just keep on crying. Looking back at those pictures it make me sad. Those happy moments when I am with her. She gone forever.


I wish I could shout it loud! Nenek, ani rindu nenek!!!!!

Janji Padanya..

Selepas pemergiaan nenek, aku hilang tempat bergantung. Aku hilang tempat mengadu aku hilang segala-galanya. kadang-kadang aku tertanya kenapa nenek tak bawak aku pergi sama dengannya? Mengapa dia yang pergi dulu. Nenek, aini rindu sangat dengan nenek.

Setiap malam aku pasti teringat dia. Dia banyak mengajar aku dia banyak menasihati aku. Walaupun kadang-kadang aku marah tapi aku tidak pernah bermaksud sebegitu. Nenek, kalau lah cahaya aku. Kini kau telah pergi tinggalkan aku.

Al-Fateha

Nenek telah selamat dikebumikan. Dia telah pulang ke rahamatullah pada 24/02/2010 pada pukul 7.30am. Apa yang aku lihat amat menyedihkan. Tak sangka nenek akan pergi tinggalkan kita semua. Kini hanya tinggal kenangan. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat insya-allah.

The Last Time.

When the last time, I was mentally and emotionally tired I pop in sleeping pills and end up in the hospital be without me realising it. All I wanted was to sleep the whole day and wake up a brand new me. But then I didn't know for what I did I had made my family and dear friends worried about me.

I had done it wrong. I don't want to beg for love anymore. I am stronger now. It was because of a guy, I almost killed myself. I wanna achieve my dreams and goals. Soon or later I know I would meet someone who could shower me with love and treasure me like Syahiq ever do to me last time. I know nobody could ever replaced him. He still remains in my heart.

Now, I am emotionally and mentally tired. I wanna sleep but not popping in the sleeping pills. Semangnya aku da ngantuk ni.

Peluang

Patut tak kalau kita beri peluang pada orang yang pernah kita sayang? Patut tak kalau kita kembali kepadanya. Hmmm agak-agak kalau kita kasi peluang hati ini akan disakiti lagi ke? Kenapa lelaki ni ego sangat? Kenapa lelaki ni susah sangat nak faham isi hati seorang wanita.

Kenapa aku ni susah nak faham lelaki? Atau mungkin aku ni da lebih sangat faham tentang dorang.