Oh well..

Reached work and a colleague of mine asked, hey tomorrow are you on leave and I replied nope my leave got rejected. And he goes oh ok den tomorrow I take half day leave morning. Well I don't know if i am being mean or what lah. My leave got rejected becoz I have to accomdate to others.

They go course lah so on and so on..... Dis is wat I mean by freedom. Where I am on my own I don't need to think who needs to cover me or so on. Anyway it's ok lah. I just need to let it out somewhere.

Here we go...

Good morning people...yeah I know no one would come across this blog. I just want to have my own personal space to let out everything. I know I shouldn't give my twitter account to my friends hahah anyway it is all done. So here I'll let out everything.

Today I woke up early but I sleep again. As usual no more motivation to go to work and face those biase people. Their problem has become our problem. Husband was a bit pissed off as he is trying his very hard to wake me up. He is persistent enough. Thank you husband. Well guess I shall rant more later on.

A little update.

Heloo...so here' s a little update about me. I am finally married hehehe.... Got married last year on the 29 August 2015. Alhamdulillah, everything turn out smooth even though the preparations was abit haywire.

Anyway, I am no longer working in children's home. All thanks to a lady who ruined everything. And now I am working with special needs people. Been with them for almost 2 yrs and I am giving up soon. It's not I don't enjoy working with them but I feel tired when handling them. It can be physically and mentally drained. I feel the boss is a bit biased. Feel that some of us are not important at all.

Anyway, husband did tell me if you think you don't like this job, just resign. I know it's nice of him to tell me that. But I can't burden him with everything. I still need income. Anyway, after so much thinking, I shall start my mini business not so soon but yet to come in sha allah. I am just tired working with people. You want to apply leave also cannot how like that???

That's all for now.

Let's Start blogging.

I shall welcome myself.... I shall go back to blogging and here I will express myself. More updates later on.

You are in a million...

Jumpa dengan seorang pemuda pada 16 July 2014. And I thought he would be the same like other guys. You know lah nowadays guys, they would rather go for looks and only one thing in their mind that is intimate affairs. But I was wrong.

After the meet up we still keep in touch. And he was attracted to me and so called miss me lah. 4 days later on the 20 July 2014 we meet up again. This time round he made confessions. Having trust issues with men, I decided to just go with flow.

Slowly he showed me that he is sincere and I slowly open up my heart to him. I mightnot love him 100% but it seems that I can't live without him. Thank Ibrahim for accepting me for who I am. I am looking forward to be your halal wife and walk with you through out. So ya dat's my love story.

Aku ingin luahkan..

Bila kita berbual tak perlu lah world sangat. Bila da tercepit baru nak sedar. Kdg bila kita diam org boleh pijak kepala kita. Tapi hari ni rasanya aku mcm da meletup tu pun sikit je. I don't like to be push here and there. Sorry lah I don't mean it tapi kadang bila dengar kawan tu ada ramai sangat kawan kenapa tak nak minta tolong dengan kawan-kawan yang lain? Kelakar kan?

I can be very understanding but don't push to my limits. At times I need people to understand me too. And saya tak suka kalau orang tak nak cuba faham keadaan saya or worst still kasi harapan.

Mungkin saya ni banyak give in dan tak tegas. So saya rasa saya akan mula tegas mulai sekarang ini. Penat lah asyik fikir pasal orang. Ye-ye cakap nak tolong tapi ntah buat ke tak. It's like I am having a trust issue now. Masih ingat lagi kata kawan keje lama, Pak Mail, kesiankan diri kita sendiri dulu baru kesiankan orang lain. So ya.

Ramadan

Alhamdulillah dapat bertemu semula dengan bulan yang penuh barakha ini. Mudah-mudahan amalan yang kami buat akan diterima oleh Allah(s.w.t). Alhamdulillah saya pun da dapat kerja baru yeaaahhh!!

Tak sabar rasanya nak mula kerja di tempat yang baru. It would be my biggest challenge and I don't know whether I could make it or not. I'll shall leave this place and organisation with an open heart and mind.

It had been a challenging year for me. From here I know who are my friends and foes. Allah is so great that HE had show me everything from worst to bad and good. How can I not be grateful for what he had given me?

I am still searching for the peace and I know I have to do it alone and keep moving on forward. That's all for now!